Sometimes I avoid it...

Recently, a friend of mine gave me a great book to read called "Choosing to See" by Mary Beth Chapman. They told me it was a tear jerker, but a great book, and I had to read it. For some reason, I put it off. Probably the same reason why I always ask someone who tells me of a good movie, "is it sad?". For some reason, I fear sadness. I don't want to go there. Maybe I feel a little self pity. I've been crying a lot of tears the last 7 yrs, so why would I choose to put myself in that situation on purpose??

Well, the last two days, I picked up the book and had a hard time putting it down. Granted, I cried and sobbed for about 3/4 of it, but it was worth it. I realized through reading this book, that God and truth are often found most through our sadness. Mary Beth was so honest about her feelings and about her faith. This tragedy rocked her whole family, but to read their response to it, was amazing. I want myself and my family so bathed in truth in who God is and why he came, that in the mist of a tragedy, we will not only pull through it, but come through stronger because of the Lord. That in everything, it will be to the glory of God.

This book helped remind me that struggles will always be here, some pain may last forever, and we may never get the answers we feel we need...but oh how we can choose to see Him in spite of it all.

I am so thankful I read this book, it has helped challenge me to SEE things in my own life. I highly recommend reading it, but I also recommend a few kleenex too!