Psalm 33:20-22

"We wait in hope for the Lord; he is our help and our shield. In him our hearts rejoice, for we trust in his holy name. May your unfailing love rest upon us, O Lord, even as we put our hope in you."

Wednesday, November 23, 2011

God knows

God has reaffirmed me over and over in the last couple of days.  It's amazing!  I was so worried about my supply, that we'd have to go on formula by the end of the week (and I'm not saying we may not...but God just helped my anxiety).  I've been pumping between 3 and 5 oz each time!  Praise God!  I was only doing about 2 and knew I couldn't keep up to his needs.  Plus, he's been nursing better...granted it may take an hour (wow) but at least he's not falling asleep all the time!  I'm not nursing at every feeding...depends how the day goes, plus the last evening feeding and the middle of the night feeding is just bottle, we'd all fall asleep nursing then adding the bottle! 

Dave was out of town recently and I was nervous about being alone all night...how would Jadon do??  Well,  I couldn't wake him at 11:30pm, so put him back to bed (this was the last feeding of the day I was trying to get in...we don't wake him during the night.) He woke up at 12:40am and was hungry.  I gave him the bottle and he normally eats it in record time (5-10 minutes!) After 15 minutes I noticed there was still a lot left, but thought he may still be tired...15 more minutes still the same about left!  Now this is at about 1:15 am, so still pretty tired!  I gave him 15 more minutes and burped him, come to find out he barely drank any!  So, I turned the bottle upside down and nothing came out!!  I tried squeezing some out, and nope!  So, my hungry baby sucked on a bottle for 45 minutes and got nothing out!!  I switched the top and he ate all in about 5 minutes!  Man...wish it didn't take me till 2 to feed him that bottle, but at least it was figured out!  We used that top for 2 weeks and never had that problem! 

So, I was like...great, he woke up at 12:40...now he'll be up around 5 for another feed.  I won't get barely any sleep!  Well, God is good, I woke up on my own at 7:11am and was like...wow, he's still sleeping, PRAISE GOD!!!  He got up at 7:45am and had one happy momma! 

I've learned God knows our every need.  He doesn't always answer in a way we want or expect, but he loves us!  I am so thankful our first night together without daddy went well!!

Monday, November 21, 2011

One Month

Wow, does time fly by or what!?  I guess lack of sleep can do that!  But, honestly, we can't complain...Jadon sleeps for about 4 hours straight throughout the night, and that isn't bad!  Here's some updates via bullet points...
  • Jadon has a pavlik brace on because they found his right hip dislocated when stressed.  He'll have it on straight for 6 weeks, then only during naps/sleep for another 6 weeks.  He is doing great with it, and we are learning!  Diapering, nursing, and changing onesies under it are a little more challenging, but we are thankful that this brace is an option!
  • He's growing!!  I don't know how much he weighs now, but he is filling out and those cute cheeks are popping out!
  • Jadon's a little piggy!  We first thought he had a fussy time...but soon realized he was just hungry.  I'm now trying to nurse, then give him a bottle that I pumped.  He normally takes 2-3 oz after nursing!!  We may need to add formula a couple times a day to keep up.
  • He is on a nice 3 1/2-4 hour routine throughout the day.  It works great for both of us...we know what to expect and can work our day around it.
  • It's fun to see some different personality traits come out once and a while...some remind Dave and I of us and can make us laugh...like his impatience he gets from his momma!!
  • He smiles!  I've actually seen some that don't mean he has gas!  It is adorable!
  • This mommy thing is harder than I thought!  I am constantly realizing I know nothing, and find myself constantly praying for wisdom.  Thankfully God answers prayers and gives wisdom when needed!
  • I find it hard to nap during the day.  I have so much I'm trying to get done while he is napping that I run out of time...oh well. 
  • We are waiting another month or so to bring him out to introduce him to people (mainly at church).  First, it's cold and flu season.  Second, I don't want to inturupt his naps.  I know I will have to some day...but for now grandma and grandpa come over to watch him after the first service at church, so I can attend the second...very helpful!!
  • Dave and I realized that we need to be better and helping people out when there are life changes.  I didn't have to cook a meal for about 3 weeks cause so many people wanted to help us out.  It was soooo helpful!  Plus we have been bombarted with sooo many gifts, even after his arrival!  It has helped us with some extra things we didn't anticipate needing (like diapers!! One brand he peed through many many times a day...I think we went through 20 diapers in a day!!)
All in all, we are greatly blessed!  I am overwhelmed some times...sometimes I need a break...sometimes my heart just melts holding him in my arms or watching daddy coo over him.  God is good, his strength is enough to carry me through each day when I feel I don't know what I'm doing or am too exhausted.

Tuesday, November 8, 2011

Jadon's Birth Story

Saturday, the 22nd, I woke up at 2:30am with contractions.  They only lasted about an hour, but they had a pattern.  I fell back to sleep until 6:30am when they started up again.  I started tracking them and finally got up cause I couldn't sleep anymore.  Thankfully the night before Dave downloaded a contraction timer, so all I had to do was click start and stop, and it would calculate the frequency and duration for me!  At 7:30am I woke Dave up to tell him that I was having contractions that were 7-9 minutes apart.  It was kinda surreal!  He slowly got up and got ready for the day. 

From there on until 5pm, the contractions would be anywhere from 4-20 minutes apart...it was frustrating!  I was hoping they would just start getting closer and harder, and we could get the game on the road!  But, God's timing is best!  Anyway, at around 4pm I knew things were progressing.  They started to average 5 min for an hour and they were more uncomfortable!  So, Dave went to take care of the dog and we started to get the bags together to go to the hospital.  Dave called ahead to let them know that we were on our way and requested a private bathroom for me (hey, a girl needs her privacy!!).  We were on our way, and I believe Dave even ran a red light!  It seemed like there was a boat load of traffic and we kept hitting red lights.  But, we made it!  It was humbling riding up there in a wheel chair, but I got over it.  I didn't want to have to walk all that way in the middle of a contraction. 

We checked in and I got in my room around 6pm.  I was checked around 6:30 and I was only at a 1 still but was 95% effaced and they could feel the head!  I took a hot shower and waited and waited.  They were not going to check me till 9:30pm and they said they then would decide if they were going to send me home.  I was like you are not sending me home like this!!!  I got up to use the bathroom before they checked me at 9:30pm and after I started another strong contraction and was leaning on the dresser while Dave massaged my back.  And then it happened...my water broke!  YEAH!  The doc, nurse, and resident were right outside my door trying to decide what to do with me and they came in and said, well, now your staying! 

I started some iv meds then.  I was at a 1.5 only and wanted to wait a while before epidural.  So, throughout the night I went through some lovely contractions till about 4:30am.  The nurse could tell I entered a new phase of pain, so we ordered an epidural...at a 2!  So, 24 hours of labor, and I was only at a 2!  The lovely epidural man came in and did his work, and I started to feel so much better.  They were going to start me on pitocin, when the resident came in and said she had a feeling and needed to do an u/s.  Well, she said she had to grab the doc, and they came back and said, baby is breech!  What a surprise!  They've been telling me they could feel his head for 4 weeks!  So, a c-section it was!  I was off by 6 am and I remember starting to feel some pressure with contractions.  While they were increasing my spinal in the OR, I told them I started to feel contractions again...they didn't quite believe me, but I said I felt them making marks on my stomach.  They waited 10 minutes and then I said, they just pinched me 3 times!  Well, the epidural didn't work, so they had to put me under.  I had so much peace.  God was so near.  I had no fear at all!  Poor Dave though.  He did a great job of capturing the moments I missed out on and spent 2 hours in the nursery with Jadon while I was in recovery.  Jadon was born at 7:03am and I got to meet him just after 9am. 

It's so amazing to see God's hand in this delivery.  The peace, the wisdom, the ability to "try" out labor, and did I mention the peace???  While I was going through contractions the Gathers music kept going through my mind...I've heard their songs a few times but I don't listen to their music regularly...it was so neat how God calmed me down! 

So, this is Jadon's birth story, I would not change a thing.  God is good!