God knows

God has reaffirmed me over and over in the last couple of days.  It's amazing!  I was so worried about my supply, that we'd have to go on formula by the end of the week (and I'm not saying we may not...but God just helped my anxiety).  I've been pumping between 3 and 5 oz each time!  Praise God!  I was only doing about 2 and knew I couldn't keep up to his needs.  Plus, he's been nursing better...granted it may take an hour (wow) but at least he's not falling asleep all the time!  I'm not nursing at every feeding...depends how the day goes, plus the last evening feeding and the middle of the night feeding is just bottle, we'd all fall asleep nursing then adding the bottle! 

Dave was out of town recently and I was nervous about being alone all night...how would Jadon do??  Well,  I couldn't wake him at 11:30pm, so put him back to bed (this was the last feeding of the day I was trying to get in...we don't wake him during the night.) He woke up at 12:40am and was hungry.  I gave him the bottle and he normally eats it in record time (5-10 minutes!) After 15 minutes I noticed there was still a lot left, but thought he may still be tired...15 more minutes still the same about left!  Now this is at about 1:15 am, so still pretty tired!  I gave him 15 more minutes and burped him, come to find out he barely drank any!  So, I turned the bottle upside down and nothing came out!!  I tried squeezing some out, and nope!  So, my hungry baby sucked on a bottle for 45 minutes and got nothing out!!  I switched the top and he ate all in about 5 minutes!  Man...wish it didn't take me till 2 to feed him that bottle, but at least it was figured out!  We used that top for 2 weeks and never had that problem! 

So, I was like...great, he woke up at 12:40...now he'll be up around 5 for another feed.  I won't get barely any sleep!  Well, God is good, I woke up on my own at 7:11am and was like...wow, he's still sleeping, PRAISE GOD!!!  He got up at 7:45am and had one happy momma! 

I've learned God knows our every need.  He doesn't always answer in a way we want or expect, but he loves us!  I am so thankful our first night together without daddy went well!!