Reflection...

Now you may look at this picture and say "what on earth are we looking at, and why are we reflecting?"  This is a picture of my nightstand.  Now it's not that I don't clean it, but a few months ago I looked over and realized what I still had laying there, and I couldn't get myself to put it away.  It's an amazing time of reflection and remembrance of where God has taken me over the last 8 months.  You see, those blue pills are naproxen.  I had them out, waiting to take them, sure I needed them, expecting my period back in February.  I had all the "classic" symptoms of AF arriving...cramps, back ache, fatigue, etc.  They had slid under my alarm clock, and I was dusting and found them still laying there...and it took me back.  I praised God in that moment. 

Next, you will see the lovely saltines, a reminder of my first trimester nausea/morning sickness.  I was living in fear at that time.  Fear that something would happen to my baby, fear that I would wake up from this "dream" and back to the reality of IF.

But here I am...34 weeks pregnant.  God has taken care of me...God has remembered me, and I choose to leave these items out for now to remind ME of my journey...to remind ME that God has always had a plan and that I still need to trust him in ALL things.  How could I not?  Look at the picture and tell me how I could forget or not believe...God is good!