Mother's Day

Mother's Day is one of those days that I don't think I will ever be able to fully enjoy. It is a constant reminder of what I have not been blessed with, that almost everyone else has. It's a day that IFers feel forgotten, not only by others, but by God. I believe that even after I am a Mother, this day will still never be the same. I will feel guilty. My heart will still be breaking for those who still have empty arms. No one "chooses" to be a mother (unless through adoption). I've learned this all too well through all our treatment. Having a baby is not a choice. God either creates life, or he doesn't. This isn't meant to be a downer post, but just our reality. I'm not mad or upset, I've moved past that...I'm just honest! I follow many other IFers blogs, and a touching poem was posted, so I thought I'd share it!

“Happy Mother's Day”
It comes around every year;
but when you have empty arms,
it's very hard to hear.
It's a day to celebrate a mother,
for all the trials she overcame;
and a reminder to an infertile
of her loneliness and shame.
But what really makes a mother,
Is it just conception and birth?
Or is there something more,
that shows a mother's worth?
It's putting your child first,
in everything you do;
it's sacrifice and determination,
and love and patience too.
An infertile woman makes all her plans,
around a child not yet conceived;
she loves them even though they aren't here,
more than she ever could have believed.
She appreciates and understands,
what a blessing that children are;
she works hard for just a chance,
that motherhood is not that far.
All odds are stacked against her,and yet she still has hope;
everyday is another struggle,
finding ways to help her cope.
So even though her arms are empty,
she can still be a mother too;
So say a special “Happy Mother's Day”
for those waiting for their dreams to come true!

I am so blessed to have such an amazing husband. Thank you Dave for being my rock and loving me so much. Your kind gestures and love helped me through one of the hardest days of the year (plus spoiling me a bit on this day meant more than you know!) I am PROUD to be your wife! Thank you!