Psalm 33:20-22

"We wait in hope for the Lord; he is our help and our shield. In him our hearts rejoice, for we trust in his holy name. May your unfailing love rest upon us, O Lord, even as we put our hope in you."

Friday, December 17, 2010

Strength not of my own

"We are Amber and Dave and we are adopting, we are not matched yet, we do have some names picked out, and we are first time parents"

This is my intro to our Baby's First Year class. Doesn't sound too bad, does it? We were last to introduce ourselves. The room was an infertile's nightmare, about 6 happy couples with bulging bellies introducing themselves, their due date, the gender and name of their baby.

At this moment, I truly realized the work that God has done in my life...like allowing me to grieve my IF and move on. It would have been TERRIBLE if I hadn't done this yet. It was awkward enough! I didn't wish that I was in their shoes at that point, I was thankful for where we are at. I will say that I drank a coke right before (benefits from not being pg!!) and I had to pee SUPER bad, so when it came to break time, I beelined for the bathroom. I obviously wasn't alone!! I stood in line and just because they were hugely pg, I did not let them go in front of me! HA! I did kinda feel like the elephant in the bathroom though!

Afterwards dh and I talked on our way home about being the black sheep in the room. I am so aware of the strength that God gave us and the peace with our situation. If this class would have been a couple months earlier, I don't think I would have even stayed long enough to introduce myself! God is good.

3 comments:

Blogging For Adoption said...

I bet that was a little uncomfortable, but isn't it great how God gives us strength when we need it most! : ) I don't think we will have to take any classes like this, but it sounds really interesting. I bet you will learn a lot.

BumbersBumblings said...

Girl, we had the SAME situation!! I think people that were hugely pregnant kinda felt bad. It helped that we knew the instructor. Turns out I was in a singles group with her sons years ago and recognized her. She was so happy for us and alleviated some of the awkwardness.
Definitely makes me feel like a strong person when I can make it through something like that. Good for you!

Trisha said...

I know exactly how you feel! The same happened to us except there were about 15 other couples and there was no introduction time :) We just sat back and laughed, watching all of them trying to figure out why we were there. God worked through us too because just a short time before that I would have never been able to make it through!